Every cloud has its silver lining, in my case it was blue as in blue placard . The stroke took out 25% of my brain concentrating around the right parietal and temporal lobes, earning me an overall diagnosis of ABI, acquired brain injury. ABI is an umbrella term that encompasses most brain injuries acquired after birth. With the current wars in the forefront we’ve become more accustomed to hear about TBI’s, brain injuries as the result of a trauma to the brain. ABC’s anchorman, Bob Woodruff did a courageous and compelling report of his own TBI sustained in his reporting of the war in Iraq and his subsequent recovery. The optimum word in TBI is traumatic and trauma to the brain comes from many sources and not just the battlefield. Car accidents, falls, assaults all contribute to the growing numbers of reported TBI cases.
I was lucky; I dodged a bullet, through the help of family and friends and close proximity to a hospital, I received expeditious care and prevented more serious damage from happening. After the initial recovery and rehabilitation, MY rehab counselors suggested that I apply for disability, with a diagnosis of ABI. Weeks later I received the coveted disabled placard in the mail. Wow front row center in most parking lots & other amenities. While my injuries pale in comparison to those received by Mr. Woodruff, the sense of loss and incapacitation is subjective and not up for review or scrutiny by the parking lot roving vice squads. On too many occasions my girlfriend & I would pull into a disabled space only to be subjected to the leers and sneers of the roving squads. I could almost hear their thoughts, Where’s your wheel chair, walker, or cane? I would then turn toward my girlfriend and say ,”it’s time to gimp it up-give them a show”.Who are these people to cast dispersions on me because I didn’t fit their criteria for who’s entitled to park in the disabled spaces. Am I placard worthy? The state department of motor vehicles has already decided.
stay tuned,
Mike
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
5.I've come to bury seizure,not to praise it
Seizures, who really talks about them? I do and will. Following my stroke I informed my doctors that I still intended to drive my car. Most of them expressed concern about this activity,however I did not understand why. It had been a year after the'event' and I had regained most of my former abilities through extensive rehabilitation and was feeling confident enough to take the car for a little spin around the block.San Diego has been disected several times by major freeways so it takes some considerable navigation of peripheral streets to avoid having to drive on one of them.
It was on a warm ,sunny, postcardish afternoon. I was driving in the marina district of the Harbor, on one of those peripheral streets when my left hand started to tingle in the fingers. Then the hand began to shake,This spread to the whole left arm which began to swing up and down in an erratic motion, at times hitting the ceiling and seat of the vehicle. Like a scene reminiscent of Peter Sellers in 'DR. Stranglove', I had lost complete control of my left arm and knowing nothing about seizures I also had no idea as to what was happening. In a failed effort to gain control of the situation,I grabbed my left arm with my right and tried to put my left hand under my leg,all of this while still driving the car. I remember My last conscious thought was,"this is no good, I've got to hit the brakes.
My next thought was,"who are you?" as I was staring into the face of the EMT person just inches away from mine. The ambulance attendant told me that I had a seizure,grand mal and was on my way to the hospital for treatment.
I've noticed while working in the recovery biz, that a lot of people from less than stellar backrounds use the phrase."I'm so blessed" adnauseam. On that particular day-I was blessed! I could've had that seizure on a freeway- with catastrophic results.Like a scene reminiscent of Paul Newman playing the great Graziano."Somebody up there likes me".
your e is a little flat &
I'm so blessed,
Mike
It was on a warm ,sunny, postcardish afternoon. I was driving in the marina district of the Harbor, on one of those peripheral streets when my left hand started to tingle in the fingers. Then the hand began to shake,This spread to the whole left arm which began to swing up and down in an erratic motion, at times hitting the ceiling and seat of the vehicle. Like a scene reminiscent of Peter Sellers in 'DR. Stranglove', I had lost complete control of my left arm and knowing nothing about seizures I also had no idea as to what was happening. In a failed effort to gain control of the situation,I grabbed my left arm with my right and tried to put my left hand under my leg,all of this while still driving the car. I remember My last conscious thought was,"this is no good, I've got to hit the brakes.
My next thought was,"who are you?" as I was staring into the face of the EMT person just inches away from mine. The ambulance attendant told me that I had a seizure,grand mal and was on my way to the hospital for treatment.
I've noticed while working in the recovery biz, that a lot of people from less than stellar backrounds use the phrase."I'm so blessed" adnauseam. On that particular day-I was blessed! I could've had that seizure on a freeway- with catastrophic results.Like a scene reminiscent of Paul Newman playing the great Graziano."Somebody up there likes me".
your e is a little flat &
I'm so blessed,
Mike
Monday, August 24, 2009
4.The Great Guitar Debate
This section can only get me in trouble. Your first guitar is like your first lover, the memory of every square centimeter of its body becomes firmly entrenched deep within uncharted areas of your cranium. When it becomes time to move on, upgrade to a better instrument. It’s like breaking up- a period of remorse, emptiness followed by the euphoria, excitement, and frustration to find a new guitar,- - -
The two national commercially produced guitars, vying for the coveted, America’s guitar accolade appear to be Martin and Taylor. I live ten miles away from El Cajon, home to Taylor Guitars. One would think that this proximity would skew my
preferences.I also lived in Pennsylvania for close to ten years at least one hundred miles away from Nazareth, Martin’s home town. However, I never made the pilgrimage to the factory. But when push comes to shove- I would have to proclaim Martin
the Harley Davidson of American made guitars. Some might think that this is a dubious entitlement, but Harley has worked hard to maintain their distinctive sound albeit has Martin.
My first guitar a1950Martin 00018 was passed to me by my very 1st guitar mentor, my father, actually I just grabbed it whenever I wanted to play it and at times was reticent to return it back to him. My mother supposedly pawned her engagement ring to make a down payment on the guitar, rendering the instrument beyond priceless. Every Sunday while my mother, a devout catholic, went to mass my father, a devout other than catholic, would sit in their bedroom and go through his litany of western songs. He would sit on the corner of their bed, wearing a baby-blue, tattered, ripped, terrycloth bathrobe singing-strumming and yodeling his way through the likes of , “oh Gualala, wreck of the old 97, tumbling tumble weeds. Not to deny our friends south of the border, my dad also attempted Mariachi music.He did a memorable command performance of ‘Guadalahara’ at the age of 94 just a couple of months ago.
One guitar, two players, one seasoned well versed in many genres and right handed, the other a rookie sweating his way through ‘Puff the Magic Dragon, and south pawed. The solution was inevitable, turn the guitar upside down. My right hand or that part of the brain that controls the right hand recognizes the feel of a Martin neck and can probably identify what fret we’re at from behind
Enough of this ranting and raving, I’m possibly alienating too many of you.Guilds, Gibsons, Breedloves are all excellent instruments. Remember the tenet,
'America's Guitar' on a commercial production scale. Disagree?--Let me know. I will reply.
Stay in tune,
mike
The two national commercially produced guitars, vying for the coveted, America’s guitar accolade appear to be Martin and Taylor. I live ten miles away from El Cajon, home to Taylor Guitars. One would think that this proximity would skew my
preferences.I also lived in Pennsylvania for close to ten years at least one hundred miles away from Nazareth, Martin’s home town. However, I never made the pilgrimage to the factory. But when push comes to shove- I would have to proclaim Martin
the Harley Davidson of American made guitars. Some might think that this is a dubious entitlement, but Harley has worked hard to maintain their distinctive sound albeit has Martin.
My first guitar a1950Martin 00018 was passed to me by my very 1st guitar mentor, my father, actually I just grabbed it whenever I wanted to play it and at times was reticent to return it back to him. My mother supposedly pawned her engagement ring to make a down payment on the guitar, rendering the instrument beyond priceless. Every Sunday while my mother, a devout catholic, went to mass my father, a devout other than catholic, would sit in their bedroom and go through his litany of western songs. He would sit on the corner of their bed, wearing a baby-blue, tattered, ripped, terrycloth bathrobe singing-strumming and yodeling his way through the likes of , “oh Gualala, wreck of the old 97, tumbling tumble weeds. Not to deny our friends south of the border, my dad also attempted Mariachi music.He did a memorable command performance of ‘Guadalahara’ at the age of 94 just a couple of months ago.
One guitar, two players, one seasoned well versed in many genres and right handed, the other a rookie sweating his way through ‘Puff the Magic Dragon, and south pawed. The solution was inevitable, turn the guitar upside down. My right hand or that part of the brain that controls the right hand recognizes the feel of a Martin neck and can probably identify what fret we’re at from behind
Enough of this ranting and raving, I’m possibly alienating too many of you.Guilds, Gibsons, Breedloves are all excellent instruments. Remember the tenet,
'America's Guitar' on a commercial production scale. Disagree?--Let me know. I will reply.
Stay in tune,
mike
Thursday, August 20, 2009
3.coffee houses only the $trong survive
I'm not allowed to drink coffee anymore--I developed a seizure disorder as a result of the stoke . So caffeine[a trigger] is off the intake list. decaf, you say? David Letterman once equated decaf to,"warm brown water". I concur with his assessment,so at this point i have developed a liking for green tea, less caffeine-more antioxidents. Doesn't quite pack the punch as a good ole French roast-sure beats risking having a grand mal.
Well they're really not about coffee.Coffee houses serve a wide array of pastries,beverages,companionship,respite,poetry and music. many a career has been honed or launched in/from coffee houses.San Diego has seen its fair share of them come and go. Of notewothy and lamentable mention is the Heritage in Mission Beach from years back. It is rumored by the artist himself, that Tom Waits use to work and perform there Remaining in that time zone was the Land of Oden and the Candy CO. in La Mesa. Heading back west and tweaking the time machine by decades, Java Joe's in Ocean Beach introduced us to the music of Jewel and Jason Mraz.
So here's the summation-there appears to be a regular set of patrons-i refer to them as grunions who frequent the coffee house venues often yet are unwilling to support them properly, by buying the products being offered for sell or pitching some coins or foldables into the tip jar. Imagine being the owner of one of these establishments,trying to pay your lease,wages, and remaining overhead from the profit margin of coffee and scone sells--pretty tough gig!--solution -charge a cover fee, even on open mike night. Just a couple of bucks or more-it's not going to break the bank. Sure times are tough, but look at the price for a pack of cigs- one always seems to come up with the doe ray for me. They will find it for your cover charge, they want to come in--it will pay your rent & more. Keep your shop alive and thriving. If you see the grunions bringing in and eating their own food, tell them to take it outside
Wow, that felt good to say, with the seizure disorder I'm dependent on public transportation, the DMV takes a dim vue of epileptics behind the wheel. Once I get use to a new coffee house and navigate the buses to get there, I settle into a certain comfort zone and become hesitant to explore further. so support your local coffee bistro, before they get into trouble and have to move on or worse. throw the musicians a couple of bucks also-Be a patron not a putz-support the arts
keep tuning,
Mike
Well they're really not about coffee.Coffee houses serve a wide array of pastries,beverages,companionship,respite,poetry and music. many a career has been honed or launched in/from coffee houses.San Diego has seen its fair share of them come and go. Of notewothy and lamentable mention is the Heritage in Mission Beach from years back. It is rumored by the artist himself, that Tom Waits use to work and perform there Remaining in that time zone was the Land of Oden and the Candy CO. in La Mesa. Heading back west and tweaking the time machine by decades, Java Joe's in Ocean Beach introduced us to the music of Jewel and Jason Mraz.
So here's the summation-there appears to be a regular set of patrons-i refer to them as grunions who frequent the coffee house venues often yet are unwilling to support them properly, by buying the products being offered for sell or pitching some coins or foldables into the tip jar. Imagine being the owner of one of these establishments,trying to pay your lease,wages, and remaining overhead from the profit margin of coffee and scone sells--pretty tough gig!--solution -charge a cover fee, even on open mike night. Just a couple of bucks or more-it's not going to break the bank. Sure times are tough, but look at the price for a pack of cigs- one always seems to come up with the doe ray for me. They will find it for your cover charge, they want to come in--it will pay your rent & more. Keep your shop alive and thriving. If you see the grunions bringing in and eating their own food, tell them to take it outside
Wow, that felt good to say, with the seizure disorder I'm dependent on public transportation, the DMV takes a dim vue of epileptics behind the wheel. Once I get use to a new coffee house and navigate the buses to get there, I settle into a certain comfort zone and become hesitant to explore further. so support your local coffee bistro, before they get into trouble and have to move on or worse. throw the musicians a couple of bucks also-Be a patron not a putz-support the arts
keep tuning,
Mike
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
2.earlier music influences
well it's time to cast a few lines, let out the nets and trawl to bring a few more of you in, I know you're out there. I was, but here I am putting it on the line. I will list my influences in my own personal chronological order of contact.
The first was Peter, Paul, and Mary-and yes I am comfortable enough in my own space to admit that I learned a lot from them. Besides their excellent vocals Peter Yarrow and Paul Stookey did some great harmonizing with their guitars and fingerpicking. One would play in the first position while the other capo'd up to the second or third position and blended in with the first.Which one of you will step up to the plate and admit that it took you a while to learn 'Puff-tmd'back then and that once you mastered that Travis style pickin, you felt you were a true folkie--ready for Gerdie's.
Eventually their magic began to fade and new fingerstylists began to reak havoc on my finger tips, taking me to faster and more challenging levels. John Fahey and Leo Kotke kept me occupied for very lengthy periods learning their tricks. but it was up to some guitarists from California, north & south to help bring me to what I then thought was the pinnacle of accousticness. Jorma Kaukonen of Hot Tuna fame teased us all in the beginning of his version of hesitation blues and then left us scratching the top of our heads when he went turbo in the middle portion. I have this recurring nightmare of attempting to perform that song and everyone in the audience drops glasses throughout the entire version. From southern CA, my next vinyl[yes i do have a turntable] mentor is Ry Cooder. In my opinion the 'king of syncopation' was a welcome departure from the repetitious styles of Fahey,Kotke, and Lang. I have always felt that Ry Cooder Has never/yet to receive his just accolades as guitarist extraodinaire. Both he and Jorma have have demonstrated staying power throughout the decades. I have added them to my 'bucket list' of those i would like to see perform.
Well I'm sure i have unintentionally omitted some of your favorites. Add them in the comment section, I'd like to know who I missed. My next diatribe will be on the demise of coffee houses as a venue for accoustic music and then on to the progress of my recovery/rehab.
Stay tuned,
mike
The first was Peter, Paul, and Mary-and yes I am comfortable enough in my own space to admit that I learned a lot from them. Besides their excellent vocals Peter Yarrow and Paul Stookey did some great harmonizing with their guitars and fingerpicking. One would play in the first position while the other capo'd up to the second or third position and blended in with the first.Which one of you will step up to the plate and admit that it took you a while to learn 'Puff-tmd'back then and that once you mastered that Travis style pickin, you felt you were a true folkie--ready for Gerdie's.
Eventually their magic began to fade and new fingerstylists began to reak havoc on my finger tips, taking me to faster and more challenging levels. John Fahey and Leo Kotke kept me occupied for very lengthy periods learning their tricks. but it was up to some guitarists from California, north & south to help bring me to what I then thought was the pinnacle of accousticness. Jorma Kaukonen of Hot Tuna fame teased us all in the beginning of his version of hesitation blues and then left us scratching the top of our heads when he went turbo in the middle portion. I have this recurring nightmare of attempting to perform that song and everyone in the audience drops glasses throughout the entire version. From southern CA, my next vinyl[yes i do have a turntable] mentor is Ry Cooder. In my opinion the 'king of syncopation' was a welcome departure from the repetitious styles of Fahey,Kotke, and Lang. I have always felt that Ry Cooder Has never/yet to receive his just accolades as guitarist extraodinaire. Both he and Jorma have have demonstrated staying power throughout the decades. I have added them to my 'bucket list' of those i would like to see perform.
Well I'm sure i have unintentionally omitted some of your favorites. Add them in the comment section, I'd like to know who I missed. My next diatribe will be on the demise of coffee houses as a venue for accoustic music and then on to the progress of my recovery/rehab.
Stay tuned,
mike
Monday, August 17, 2009
1.Lucky Strike/Bad stroke-Recovery-more than 12 steps
More like leaps and bounds, than steps
Well, I recently watched 'julie & julia' and like the other hundreds of thousands I'm not immune from the urge, passion ,or desire to share/exploit my inner most thoughts or rantings on of what's left of my mind with what I imagine to be a fascinated world.
Recovery for me is not in the traditional sense of chemical or alcohol addiction, but rather from the physical effects of a stroke I suffered four years ago. The processes are vaguely the same, the causes are more similar.
Before the stroke, Iwas a slightly accomplished accoustic guitarist-seldom performed-horrible stage fright. My style of guitar playing was/is fingerstylist'cottonpicking, Named after Elisabeth Cotton[for all you 'folkies' she wrote freight train] -she took a right hander's guitar turned it upside down and taught herself to play in that fashion as did I.
My stroke was a right brain ischemic stroke- that effected my left hand's ability to fingerpick. I miss my music like a parent misses a child-I Have dreams about songs i use to play. Everytime I pick up the guitar I am overwhelmed by depression over my inability to play what I use to.
So here's the premise, I will diligently practise every day and develop a left hand rehabilitation routine to expedite a return to my former abilities I calculate this process to take about one year and will document the highs and lows of the journey At the end of that year i will perform at a local coffee house here in San Diego-you'll all be invited 1st cup on me!-- So join me in this blog and share about similar experiences,acoustic music, and addiction/recovery--Bythe way, they weren't Lucky Strikes--Marlboros- to the tune of 3 packs a day, stroke? go figure.Talk to you soon.
mike
Well, I recently watched 'julie & julia' and like the other hundreds of thousands I'm not immune from the urge, passion ,or desire to share/exploit my inner most thoughts or rantings on of what's left of my mind with what I imagine to be a fascinated world.
Recovery for me is not in the traditional sense of chemical or alcohol addiction, but rather from the physical effects of a stroke I suffered four years ago. The processes are vaguely the same, the causes are more similar.
Before the stroke, Iwas a slightly accomplished accoustic guitarist-seldom performed-horrible stage fright. My style of guitar playing was/is fingerstylist'cottonpicking, Named after Elisabeth Cotton[for all you 'folkies' she wrote freight train] -she took a right hander's guitar turned it upside down and taught herself to play in that fashion as did I.
My stroke was a right brain ischemic stroke- that effected my left hand's ability to fingerpick. I miss my music like a parent misses a child-I Have dreams about songs i use to play. Everytime I pick up the guitar I am overwhelmed by depression over my inability to play what I use to.
So here's the premise, I will diligently practise every day and develop a left hand rehabilitation routine to expedite a return to my former abilities I calculate this process to take about one year and will document the highs and lows of the journey At the end of that year i will perform at a local coffee house here in San Diego-you'll all be invited 1st cup on me!-- So join me in this blog and share about similar experiences,acoustic music, and addiction/recovery--Bythe way, they weren't Lucky Strikes--Marlboros- to the tune of 3 packs a day, stroke? go figure.Talk to you soon.
mike
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